[a]  sometime …; Jänner 2015;

 

 

  

sometime

there are growing flowers

around my pain

… careful and shy …

… sometime …

 

 

 

vergeben

             [b]  butterflies are free; Jänner 2015;

  

 

 

 

looking for the butterfly …

longing for the butterfly …

dreaming about the butterfly …

but never allowed to reach

cause i realized –

butterflies are free ...

             [c]  my empty heart; Jänner 2015;

 

my empty heart

open

not bleeding any longer

but beating

beating

hurting

hopefully freezing this night

receiving a second of silence

my empty heart

open

because of

and for

bleeding again

 

hopefully freezing this night

 

 

             [d]  see your face; Jänner 2015;

 

 

see your face

behind my bleeding veil

see your face

never allowed to caress

see your face

soiled by the blood of an old man

see your face

annoyed and hurt

waiting for your tears

to wipe off

...

you don’t have to – i’ll do it for you

             [e]  face of an angel; Jänner 2015;

 

 

 

 

 

it is deadly to see the face of a real angel –

so be careful and satisfied

by seeing the beauty of her back

             [f]   little green bird; Februar 2015;

 

 

it is hard
to let it fly
...
this beautiful little green bird
...
but hopefully
it will find the small space
you prepared as a nest
in your heart
...
someday

             [g]  weep my dear; Februar 2015;

 

weep my dear,

continue weeping,

till your eyes will stop

...

i will hold you in my arms

helping you to weep

...

and i will give you my shirt

when all is over

and you can clean your face

...

weep my dear,

continue weeping,

till your heart says

it is enough

             [h]  cold breath; März 2015;

 

cold breath

coming out

of

the

most beautiful face

...

cold breath

let me freeze

each day

a bit colder

...

but

never allowed

to die

             [i]   helpless; September 2015;

 

 

 

 

feeling so helpless

when losing my masks

feeling so helpless

when leaving the stage

feeling so helpless

when discovering myself

             [j]   the one with the flute; September 2015;

  

 

again and again

the one with the flute

that kills my heart

...

this beloved tune

that cuts deeper and deeper

...

i like the black wings

that embrace me

...

that painfully caress my soul

...

till i die

             [k]  tried to fly; September 2015;

 

 

 

 

tried to fly

tried to cross this foggy sky ...

lost my heart –

and you burnt down my wings ...

came down on earth again

on earth that i can’t never leave ...

             [l]   release the threat; September 2015;

 

 

 

 

i would be delivered

if she would release the thread

...

but she doesn’t know

that she holds it

between her fingers

             [m] you don’t have to ...; Oktober 2015;

 

you don’t have to jump my dear

you only have to wait

till ground is oncoming

...

when it is time

stay strong on it

when it is time

your falling rose will grow again

and your empty heart

- torn between hope and despair –

will feed the weeping bird in your hand

...

you only have to wait

till ground is oncoming

...

you don’t have to jump my dear

           

            [n]  not able to jump; Oktober 2015;

 

 

 

 

 

... not able to jump ...

is there anybody to help?

...

there is!